FINDING BEAUTY IN DARKNESS
A void, empty room where darkness dwells without escape. The windows and doors are all closed, without a hint of light. Darkness consumes everything before me, like a blind man, eyes open yet held by the nothingness that surrounds me.
Gosh! It's scary in here, where thoughts of fear, low self-esteem, and purposelessness creep in faster than a minnow can swim a dipper. I was trapped in that isolated room, caged by my own self-doubt and unwavering desires and thoughts. Right there, I felt forced to live in a place I couldn't call home.
Gosh! It's scary in here, where thoughts of fear, low self-esteem, and purposelessness creep in faster than a minnow can swim a dipper. I was trapped in that isolated room, caged by my own self-doubt and unwavering desires and thoughts. Right there, I felt forced to live in a place I couldn't call home.
In that space, I was choked by questions I never wanted to answer, and the worst answers drifted my soul to emptiness and hatred towards myself. I hated me. I hated every part of myself. How can someone despise their own self? How can one bear so much pain towards their own being? How can someone spit at their own reflection?
I was that someone who hated the reflection of herself. I was that someone who felt disgusted at the person she was. I was the hater of my own life. And I hated myself more because I couldn't save myself. I couldn't fight myself to victory without being defeated, not once but constantly.
I was that someone who hated the reflection of herself. I was that someone who felt disgusted at the person she was. I was the hater of my own life. And I hated myself more because I couldn't save myself. I couldn't fight myself to victory without being defeated, not once but constantly.
Funny as it may seem, I had one escape moment - a slight glimpse of happiness that gladdened my heart for a second. And that fleeting moment is now. Yes, at this very moment, when I can voice my thoughts and hurts. This moment, where I run to, is my escape route.
Where I'm saved by the words of my thoughts and heart. Where I have all the power to do my bidding and desires. Where I'm void of the sorrows, pains, and anguish of self. It's really amusing, right? Yet it's no joke to me, who understands the emotions bursting out of my heart.
Where I'm saved by the words of my thoughts and heart. Where I have all the power to do my bidding and desires. Where I'm void of the sorrows, pains, and anguish of self. It's really amusing, right? Yet it's no joke to me, who understands the emotions bursting out of my heart.
This moment, right now, penning this, is my favorite time and escape route. Smiles. And it's more liberating how this moment becomes my beacon of hope. The beauty in that darkness.
Dearest, I've been where you are. I've felt the crippling emotions of worthlessness and low self-esteem. It hurts, deeply. The pain feels infinite, and I clearly understand how you're feeling. But then, I want you to do something. LOOK! Look deep into that darkness that seems to be suffocating you. Look beyond your thoughts, beyond the shadows, and see the beauty that's hidden within those dark moments.
Dearest, I've been where you are. I've felt the crippling emotions of worthlessness and low self-esteem. It hurts, deeply. The pain feels infinite, and I clearly understand how you're feeling. But then, I want you to do something. LOOK! Look deep into that darkness that seems to be suffocating you. Look beyond your thoughts, beyond the shadows, and see the beauty that's hidden within those dark moments.
Yes, LOOK AGAIN! See the beauty in the darkness, and watch how it paves the way for the light to illuminate. The darkness may seem overwhelming, but it's also an opportunity for growth, for self-discovery, and for transformation. Find beauty in the darkness, and let it be the catalyst for your healing, your restoration, and your renewal.