The things, I never say
Dear diary,
It's been awhile since we last talked. Yes, it's been three months since that day and I said it would be the very last. Here I am once more, with those same ill feelings and I am left with no alternative but to tell thee because only you can really understand me without blame or interrogation.
It's been awhile since we last talked. Yes, it's been three months since that day and I said it would be the very last. Here I am once more, with those same ill feelings and I am left with no alternative but to tell thee because only you can really understand me without blame or interrogation.
So, I came across these humans that wear scrubs to work_you know how much I envy them. Guess what, I came across this photo of them in a group and it struck me how I wanted to be part of them_ one of the dreams that seems hard to achieve.
I really feel bad when I think that I'm not living life the way I planned it. "Never! expect much from life, cause life will disappoint you when you least expected"_it is now clearer to the mind.
I really feel bad when I think that I'm not living life the way I planned it. "Never! expect much from life, cause life will disappoint you when you least expected"_it is now clearer to the mind.
I have thought of many roads from where I am that could possibly lead me back to the right path but each step is like stepping on a burning ground, the pain and struggle of not giving up seem unbearable to carry on.
And I look to see my paradise near, the farther I look,the longer I see the journey become, just in a maze trying all possible puzzles to break free.
People and society always fail to see this burning desire within. well, what can one say or do in a society that adores money to dream. Pay in full or stick at a spot,the choice is yours.
Maybe I'm not brilliant enough to have such a high dream, I thought at some point. I see my friends achieving their dreams and I wonder what I wasn't doing right_i read tirelessly for each exam, put in my very best but when it's time to see the result, lam always weakened to my knees. Maybe the path I choose is not ordained by God_Mom will always say. But our dreams can never be denied by God, are they?
Living this life is such a hell and understanding life is yet a mystery_This wreck of a life, I must see to its end victorious and I choose to follow my own path despite the odds. That's a promise and I hope never to hold glued to this emotion, the next time I write again.
Living this life is such a hell and understanding life is yet a mystery_This wreck of a life, I must see to its end victorious and I choose to follow my own path despite the odds. That's a promise and I hope never to hold glued to this emotion, the next time I write again.
February 2024