I never really felt beautiful.
Yes, you read right.
Back then in secondary school I was either known for being the quiet, well mannered and top three brilliant students. Never was I referred to as pretty or beautiful. It didn't really occur to me.
The way I dressed or appeared didn't matter. I guess it was something I knew within me as truth.
I never really saw the need to look at myself in the mirror. I can still remember vividly, when I was trying to comb my hair, my eyes were stuck to my to hair. It occurred to me of how much I spite my reflection— it was one thing I couldn't look boldly to, a face that was mine yet had no description of.
I was always left to wonder why and how people admire themselves. How they can adequately describe their looks and physique so detailedly.
And at some point, I started referring to myself as ugly. I felt like all I had to myself was either my personality or brain.
Most times when I'm asked to describe myself with any adjective—Pretty and beautiful are too distinct words I couldn't see myself use to qualify me. On other people's lips, those words are what comes to their mind first and out of their lips.
I lived and believed so to be what I really was up on till when I started looking at myself more. When I started seeing the beauty in my possession.
Yes, it may not be the beauty standards of the society; I may not have those long hair, pink lips, glowing face and banging body.
I saw in me the perfect creation. I started referring to myself as a beautiful lady, as a pretty girl being the best version of herself. With time I saw my beauty, I looked more at myself in the mirror and I'm amazed with God's perfect creation and I started witnessing people referring to me as beautiful too. One's perception of oneself is what others see and say about them. Refer yourself with what you wish to be referred to as.
Here are a few tips to get started on your journey towards body positivity and self-acceptance:
★Practice self-compassion: Treat yourself with the same kindness and understanding that you would extend to a close friend. Be gentle with yourself and accept that you are human and imperfect.
★Challenge negative thoughts: Whenever you have negative thoughts about your body, challenge them by replacing them with positive affirmations
★Celebrate your strengths: Make a list of all the things you love about your body and celebrate them regularly.
★Find role models: Surround yourself with positive body images, such as inspirational quotes or images of diverse bodies.
★Practice mindful eating: Pay attention to your hunger and fullness cues and honor them, rather than relying on external factors like diet culture to dictate what and when you eat.
★Focus on what your body can do: Instead of focusing on how your body looks, focus on what it can do. Celebrate your strength, flexibility, and endurance.
★Get moving: Exercise can be a great way to boost your mood, improve your overall health, and feel more confident in your body. Find an activity that you enjoy, whether it's yoga, running, or dancing.
★Dress for confidence: Wear clothes that make you feel comfortable and confident.
★Unfollow toxic accounts: If you find that following certain accounts on social media makes you feel bad about your body, unfollow them.
★Seek support: Talk to a trusted friend, family member, or therapist about your feelings.
★Practice gratitude: Each day, think of three things you are grateful for about your body. This can help shift your focus from what you perceive as flaws to what you appreciate about yourself.
★Surround yourself with positivity: Spend time with people who lift you up and support you, and distance yourself from those who bring you down.
★Journal about your feelings: Writing about your thoughts and emotions can help you process and release them.
★Create a vision board: Visualize what body positivity and self-acceptance looks like for you and create a visual representation of that.
★Learn about body diversity: Educate yourself on body diversity and the different shapes and sizes that people come in.
★Practice mindful language: Be mindful of how you talk about yourself and others. Avoid negative language and focus on positive and affirming language.
★Embrace imperfections: Remember that imperfections are part of what makes you unique and special.
★Take breaks from the mirror: Spend less time in front of the mirror and focus on other things that bring you joy and fulfillment.
★Find your inner beauty: Focus on what makes you beautiful on the inside, such as your kindness, generosity, and empathy.
★Celebrate progress: Focus on progress, not perfection. Celebrate small steps in the right direction and remember that it's a journey, not a destination.