THE BITTER TRUTH
And at that moment your life starts flashing before your very eyes. It is really the end of existence. The very end of all there's. Every moment once experienced replays in your eye for only you to see. At that every time, you ask “Was all this worth it?”. Guess you finally got the answer but I bet it is very late to redirect those footsteps. It is so pathetic how you wish for just a second to come by. Just a millisec to change the choices and decisions we made but after all, it ended like this. Very tragic.
Life gives us choices to make but a wrong step leads to the wrong path of destruction and there's no going back. There's no second chance to rewrite the goddamn story. It hurts.
All I wanted was just to put up with all these struggles. “Just wait a little more” I would say. I just wanted a better life for myself and for my family. “Just work hard for the moment, I will stop when I get enough money” yet it wasn’t enough. Not enough to cast myself into a doom of no return. Not enough to set my loved one free from what I feared most for them. Not enough to buy the stuff I wanted for myself. Not enough for the place I wished to be. Just not enough but I had to pay the price in full for these choices.
Goddamn it, who said working hard pays?. Who said total diligence and determination is a sacrifice to achievement.
Ooh yes. “What a hardworking lady you are”. “What can I do without you”— All these and more they said but to what end. Was I really irreplaceable?
The answer to that question is exactly NO. The moment you are gone, you are forgotten. The moment you cease to exist, you get replaced. And all those words and accolades get tossed into a dumpster as trash that never did matter. You get flushed away from the history you thought you made. It hurt so bad.
The answer to that question is exactly NO. The moment you are gone, you are forgotten. The moment you cease to exist, you get replaced. And all those words and accolades get tossed into a dumpster as trash that never did matter. You get flushed away from the history you thought you made. It hurt so bad.
Even when the signs were glaring. Your body needed rest. Your soul yearns for family companions. Yet you push those feelings, those obvious signs for what exactly?. For an accolade that will turn to blame when you are gone. Hard work is a good quality but at what cost? Your LIFE?.
To think that I promised her to take care of this body. I promised to care for myself. Just after this one more task. Just after this job, I can finally fulfill these promises. And that was my biggest mistake. If only I never took those footsteps. If only I got mad at myself. If only I cared less of what others thought. If only I cared more for myself. If only I could change this ending before me. But I guess it won't. The price I have to pay for the choices I made.
Let my life be a lesson to others. Let this tragic end of mine be an eye opener to many. No one is irreplaceable. Those riches you wish to have are nothing without shared memories of people you love. Wealth doesn't guarantee happiness. It's not just worth it.